I hope each and every one of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving! There is so so much to be thankful for. I know this year seems to flipped sideways and unpredictable but it is such a good reminder for me that none of this is news to the Lord! It gives me great peace and comfort knowing that our All Mighty King is in control and watching over us. I apologize for such a gap in time from my last update. I have had a tough couple months and have neglected to share.
I am not sure where to start or where I even left off last… So bare with me! For those who around me enough they know this already (it’s hard to miss) but for those that aren’t my hands shake constantly. It has been awhile now but they are progressively getting worse. I have days I cannot put a lid on a bottle or pour my own drink without making a mess. It is one of the things that has kept me from writing my latest blog as it is very frustrating for me to type for long periods of time. I find myself constantly gripping things tightly or holding my own hands firmly so they don’t move or others don’t see. As it has gotten worse I also have had nerve jolting. All throughout the day and night I get these random jolts of pain through my body that cause reflex. If I tried to describe it to someone it would be when you are at the doctor and they hit your knee to check your reflex and your leg automatically swings out. Well that happens all over my body at the most odd times and places. I have have had several MRIs done when the shaking first began and everything looked good but my neurologist retired. I am set to see my new neurologist on the 21st so if you could be praying for that I would greatly appreciate it. It is a small thing in the midst of what I have been through but it is definitely something that affects my daily activities.
The next obstacle I attacked and conquered was that nasty intestinal infection I had back in May… well it returned and with a vengeance! This time it stayed a lot longer! I did two rounds of antibiotics and it eventually went packing but that was a tough month. It felt like I had glass in my stomach and I had a fever then would be freezing, back and forth back and forth! I felt like a ping pong ball! I am thankful to say that has cleared up and left the playing field!
I had my latest tests done for my continual cyst issue. There was some good news so I will start there first! The peritoneal fluid pockets have dramatically reduced in size! Which is incredible. These are the cysts that have continued to come back the last 9 times previously. That was awesome news! What was surprising to us is now I have ovarian cysts! A golf ball on one side and a tennis ball on the other!!! No wonder I have had pressure on my bladder yet again! I was convinced this is now the time to finally remove my ovaries and fallopian tubes. I sat down with my primary doctor and discussed things. I have always known that there is no guarantee this would fix the issue but even the chance was worth it to me! So I called my OBGYN and told him I am ready let’s do this… That phone call was not what I expected. He explained to me he was not comfortable removing them. He would never do that surgery on me as I have too many adhesions and scar tissue from other abdominal surgeries and it is way too risky. So he referred me to an oncologist OBGYN.
The following week I was at the Cancer center down at Cedars Sinai, probably one of the only buildings I haven’t had to be at yet! Waiting in his office I was actually excited. I know that sounds kind of silly but the idea that there was possibly a solution to these cysts never coming back was incredible. Well my excitement was soon turned into disappointment as he also agreed with my normal OB. In fact he said it would be irresponsible to remove them as it would only create more room for my cysts to grow and possibly come back faster. My issue is not gynecological but surgical. The fluid causing these cysts is not coming from my fallopian tubes and he could 100% assure me that. He said my issue is caused by all my abdominal surgeries and the empty cavity left behind. Removing more organs of mine could only cause more damage to my body. In one sense I was relieved as going into early menopause is not something I ever wanted or being on hormones. Nor did I want to go through a major surgery like that but… now what? I continue dealing with these cysts every 6 months?
While I sat in his office he continue to talk to me about my history and said that he was more worried about things like ovarian cancer or ovarian disease. So I was lucky enough to have a vaginal biopsy done right then and there. Let me tell you those are not pleasant. They are very painful. But the good news is everything was negative. So I am thankful that I got that out of the way. Shortly after the biopsy though I did have a cyst that burst. The smaller fluid pockets that were there decided they didn’t like being poked and prodded at! My lower back went out with the cyst and boy that was a fun 6 days! I think I only showered once that entire week! Just moving was a chore in itself. So as I said before it was a tough couple of months.
As I sit here typing I just think about all the suffering in the world. All the pain surrounding us. All the fear being displayed. I think about Matthew 9:20 and the sick woman who had been bleeding for 12 years. She reached out and touched the cloak of Jesus and she was healed in that very moment. Some people think how impossible that sounds to touch a cloak and be healed or somehow be made new? The same thing can happen today, can happen now! You don’t have to live in suffering. You don’t have to live in pain or fear! God still has his hand out for you to reach out and grab. It is by faith you will be saved. It may not be physically or financially that your life changes but you realizes that those things that once meant so much don’t matter at all anymore. The transformation of the heart, the restoration of life, the gift of salvation and eternal bliss is more joy than you could ever encounter. You soon understand that your suffering has a purpose and your pain is purposeful! There is no fear for our Father has this and as long as we are in his hands and he is in our hearts all is well. ALL IS WELL.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. -Romans 12:2
Newest Update on my financial situation– God continues to work in this area of my life daily. I like to keep the specific ways private as I feel blessings as amazing as these are for Gods glory and not our own. I will assure you though that EVERY single month I have continued to be blessed in the most special ways by the most incredible people. Thank you to my loving, supportive family, friends and brothers and sisters in Christ who continue to bless me and saturate me in love. As of right now the only two bills I have that are outstanding only equal just over 1,000$!!! That is after 8 years of being sick!!! He has met my every need… God is so good!
All for HIM Always,
Kimberli West XOXO
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